I don't know how to find that right person.  You know that crazy individual who says this guy might have something.  Lets give him a chance.  See I have come to the conclusion that I won't ever find an engineer who will understand how I see the world.  I don't it like most people because I am not like most people.  In many ways I have never been a part of the real world, living a very uncommon life full of highs and big lows.  I have failed at everything I have tried because I have been running from my past.  Never able to deal with the reality of my life.  Nature and Nurture fucking me up the ass at the same time, without a condom.  Success or failure for me will never be about other people.  It will always be about me and the me inside trying to find me. 

I would like to say everything is perfect.  Problem is nothing feels perfect.. it never has felt perfect.. I don't know how I will feel from day to day.  I am a different sort I suppose in that I feel the world with the passion of a 1000 men.. problem is with passion comes stupidity of emotion.. you see things based on previous experiences and it becomes self repeating.. circular.. I need to much.  the stink of lonely people.. people reject it and me.. it builds.. the expectations become the reality.. it is the curse of my heart you see.  Beneath the chaos of emotion is a really a very brilliant man.  The problem is the emotion.  Living in a place where the lack of sunlight leaves me alone in a room running through the moments of my life trying to find but one reason to live.  Can you imagine that?  Trying to find one reason to live.  It is always the same.. my dogs.. I love my dogs and they would be heart broken..

It is the sun you see.  It affects my serotonin levels.  No sun no happy.. after awhile it doesn't even matter cause the memories of the time with no sun are good enough to ruin the times where there is.  Trapped in a personal prison of sorts.. lost in a mind of madness.  Not that there is not hope.  That someone will see the guy who just took a long time to figure out what he wants to do with his life.  Code.. or learn to code and how he must overcome a mistake of the past to find a way to make enough money to go to school and learn to code so I can create the masterpieces in my brains.. like a better # tag system.. muahahaha..

Let the story begin...

What is the deal with the # in web colors and the 15teen billion names for the same color?  Is there any difference between the #333333 or 333333 in the color?  Is there any difference between http://igebadia.com  http://www.igebadia.com  igebadia.com?  The point I am trying to make here is good software should make that leap for people sometimes.  Meaning if #333333 or 333333 are actually the same thing.  Then at the very least have a "did you mean" like google has.  This is what #google does best.  They reduce the number of steps it takes people to get the information you want without a lot of distractions.  When people use search they are usually working.  Social is more a thing you are doing when your not working so likely not using search.  Did I just predict the future?  How the market decides where we go for each cause you can't be both.  Google needs to look at creating a business service which pulls in feeds from where ever we make them and allows us to deliver it to clients via a mobile business card exchange.  Help the sales person build a real time directory with google map directions built in with bluetooth to gps.  I like my gps to be a garmen.  There are some big weaknesses with all gps devices.

1.  They don't work around airports.  This is really annoying cause the hardest place to get out of is a dam airport.  I got lost trying to get out of the airport.  Ended up back where I started 5 times.  I hate having to read maps while I drive in a strange place and yet you all make us do it.  Seriously would it be too much to ask that people know where they are going around airports? 

2.  They don't look at all elements.  Sometimes all you have is a zipcode or a postal code and you end up in the wrong state.  A lot of businesses do go to sell and or support products in your core industry.  Being able to get where you need to at X time is very important in terms of sales.  Salesmen change but the clients you sell to do not.  Allow for the geo data to be saved to the business which would then encourage them to keep using your GPS.  It would help train new sales people to be able to avoid some of the previous mistakes.  Businesses pay too much money in getting lost time and this would reduce that. 

3.  They like google haven't hired me.  I would rock a garmen all over the world.  I would be the guy who would add pictures and even do a video or so.  A gps card of a trip I could send to friends and such or to businesses to reduce lost time.  You could have in house rating systems for the hotels you stayed in which would allow you to interact with other business people.  The coolest thing about flying is the people you meet on the plane. 

I am tired now.. the brain is on loan it seems.. remember I am stupid.. and yet not stupid.. it is a mystery to you.. not to me.. you do not see all the variables..

the math.. it speaks to me.. and it says I need a wise man on top of the hill.. I would settle for a hot ass asian emo #sexable irobot.. daddy is home and been a bad, bad, boy.. cause when you think of ever after.  Wouldn't it be nice to be married to someone that will rub your hooves and look good till the end of time while you don't.. well that is until your human life dies and you are uploaded to the matrix.. it is real..

neo is a chump, numbers mcpi ... muhahahahahahaha

Every business and/or person has a story.  Online that story is told by others using crowd-sourced knowledge to keep it pure from the corporate hands.  The problem is the disposable income people have to dispose is less.  A single line suggest a wikipage ad system could generate a good CPC.  IT would allow businesses and social media stars a different way to connect to users.  Give you money to continue this dream you are creating.  The value in the wiki-page is it tends to do well in searches.  IT doesn't sound like an ad.  It isn't something I would ever want to write myself.  Crowd-sourced story of some of the coolest businesses in the world.  A history of them written by the people who lives it.  All your ads would really do is encourage people to read business stories.  Give the power to the crowd to be honest.  Double edged sword.  Every business has a story.  Not every business wants you to know that story. 

I have never understood why you do not encourage debate in the background of each moment in time written in your pages.  The world is not one single perspective.  Often we disagree on things and it is only through understand each side of the story can we come close to knowing the truth.  The fact are you cannot just care about the American point of view.  The numbers tell a much different story of america.  A cruel and horrible one.  700k have died for what?  No I don't hate you for it.  I understand how fear can make us horrible and how old white folk tend to point missiles at their problems cause they love themselves some guns and oil. 

Go ahead Texas send in the troops and ask yourself how many of the bullets fired from the drug cartel came from America and who made profit from that.  I always marvel in our hypocrisy in life. 

I am sorry but you desk makers you suck ass.  It is what it is.  If you were any good I wouldn't be saying you suck.  See sitting down for long periods of time is unhealthy but until you idiots understand the human body and build desks that move with the person you are going to have continue to suck.  I want a desk that allows me to work in a 100 different positions... build me a desk.. I will create the most efficient working desk to appeal to the inner super geek and super spy.. muahaha

Hi, you don't know me and after meeting me I promise you will never actually be the same.  Sorry it is just one of those things that happens when you meet me.  The other is I have wild ideas and when companies put their email addresses on the web I like share my wild ideas.  Do you ever go to the bathroom and just wish you had access to your favorite writers, only stories you haven't read?  Information in text form which you can just consume in the last true home away from the chaos that is the female mind?  The sweet smell of the ass is apparently the only thing in this world which will keep women away long enough so you can enjoy going to the bathroom.  I am a 35 year old male and the best part of my day is the 30 minutes I spend in the bathroom consuming media.  I don't want ads, I want to be able to pick the background, text color, size. 

The reason nobody is going to touch youtube is because a tuber can make in excess of 300k per year doing low quality videos.  The user loyalty you get from the intimate connection is amazing.. and scary.. tubers keep people coming back to consume more videos.  I never understand why so many businesses don't see the value in crappy video.  There must be a way a person could say follow authors say for free on your normal pc.  Where you would track what people view on their pc.  Send that to a gray scale, low ink usage called I got to go shit app which will print off the text.  Then they would have the option of buying the app on the ipad.  I still think they should do as 25 cents a writer.  Ahh.. I don't know.. I just know I want an oh shit app which you basically do without the fun name.  If you could allow for people to make branded players.  read what he reads.. Forgive me my mind is wild.. and yes I am insane.. I use to be normal you see.. then I outsourced the development of a facebook app to india and either india or learning about the crazy back ass world of software development fucked with my brain..

How did you all do that background thing?  You know the thesixtyone.com effect which at first kind of sucked but after a while it offers a simplicity which you have to admire.. in web design simple is often better. 

Cheers.. been fun..

Numbers...

A radio app that would simple exerts from audiobooks, allowing a person to puruse books while driving.  Listen to the first 5 pages of any of the books in itunes library.  get the affiliate link which itunes gives as does amazon.  the power of the spoken word..

There is no right way.  There is a million perspectives on the right way and all of them are wrong for you.  The secret to building the perfect website is to keep it in your head cause the moment you try to code your brain will say to feat run into a fucken wall.  You think hey I got it made using dreamweaver but then you realize the nice auto tables that you got from photoshop having sex with dreamweaver is old news.  Apparently you have to use CSS and div tags whatever the fuck that is.  So the only way.. to build a website right is to not build it cause by the time you figure out how to build it the whole industry will have changed.

Run..

numbers...

I use to be normal, I really did but then I tried to build a website and it fucked with my brain. 

One of the hardest things about becoming a web nerd is the loneliness.  While other people are off living life like I use to before the social anxiety disorder raised its ugly head, I am stuck here on a computer trying to make a career out of blogging and vlogging.  The problem is everytime I sit down to work on my mac I feel a deep melancholic sadness creep over me.  I need noise, anything to distract me from my fucked up mind.  When I say noise I do not mean music.  In fact I never listen to music.. well only upon occasion do I listen to music.. it makes me too sad.  Like a lot of things in my life I had to give up music, romantic movies, dramatic movies, basically anything that makes me feel inside.  I can't afford to think because then I think about her.. the girl I tried so hard to woo and these days I can't even get her to spend 10 minutes writing me an email.  Even now I am in a dangerous place talking about this because often when I do I end up downstairs in my bed lost in what ifs.

I wish I did not have a heart for then I would surely have made enough money doing this stuff by now.  Too often it is what holds me back.  How at times I simply cannot remove as the sadness becomes a weight I can not endure and in a panic I search for pills, anything to make me fall asleep.  I know what Michael Jackson felt before he died.. that overwhelming panic of please give me a moments release from life.. all you want is for the nightmares inside to stop.. half the time you wish you would never wake up..

Once upon a time in a land named California there was a man named Mark Z.  By day he was the most powerful man on the planet as leaders of men would seek his advice.  At night when the sun dimmed he would leave the confines of his office in his custom Tesla motors bat mobile. 

You doubt the great Numbers Mcpi, the man to which the math speaks to?  How would you know if this was true or not?  If he was indeed Batman do you think you would know?  Maybe there is proof online, on youtube but you don't believe it is real?

Maybe all we are is a brain in a vat with some mad scientist making this world up through electrical impulses?  Maybe your brain needs Batman?

Would it make you like Mark Zuckerberg more if he was Batman?

Checkout a video I did a long time ago

It is a lot of random thoughts on modern technology of the web and how to use it.   PS please sub me.  Double click on the video to go to youtube. 

Of all the stupid ideas I ever had, competing with Amazon takes the cake.  The reason why Amazon or say Walmart can offer such low prices is because they buy a ton of product.  Meaning the only way I could compete with them is buy ordering a million of everything.  Not that I understood that at that time in my life.  I didn't understand a lot except I wanted a way to run my own business so I wouldn't have to deal with my boss who made my bootcamp instructor look nice by comparison.  I think I went into this in a previous blog post, not a 100% sure because I don't read my own blog posts or remember what the heck I said in them.  I kind of have a chaotic mind.  It is funny how hating one life can make you reach blindly for the promise of another life.

I wanted to take on Amazon and so not thinking, not researching I started emailing every cool tech company I could find.  I found a pre-made template which had paypal on it and I was giddy up lets get going so a $150 I was on a plane to China trying to learn HTML enough to run my store.  I had no idea about how I needed a shopping cart.  How hard it was to change the products in the store?  How to upload my template to the web?  How to do just about anything online..

Looking back you want to slap yourself, tell yourself all the things you needed to know before you wasted dollar after dollar trying to run away from a job you hated.  I wish I had done more research.  Breathed a little more and not act out of desperation which almost everything I did for the past 2 or 3 years was about.  Sure I still think a high end version of Amazon would be nice.  Something that would focus on getting the top tech first and only caring the best of the best.  It might even be possible to do this using Amazon's make your own store feature.  However at that time in my life where I was still unsure about school, not finding a place there where I fit and knowing I hated being around my old boss I was in no position to be able to make it happen. 

Anyways been fun, have to run, please take a look at my youtube channel and sub.. here is a video..  This is a video response I did to Peter Chao.  I wasn't really sure what I was doing with each channel at this time so it really doesn't fit with the cyber nerd persona.  Still finding my voice..

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PS... don't ask me how the picture makes sense.. it does a little..